Anyway! So far so good. I'm staying with random friends on random couches until I get my own place in a few months. I start work at my old/new job tomorrow. I'll be working with HONO for a few months while I get my feet on the ground here. Then my ideal plan would be to work part-time, while trying to start up my own communications business.
There - I said it on the internet. I want to work for myself.
The first thing you need to get used to when you decide something like that is all the scoffing. In fact, I will say that with any bold decision - people are quick to share their skepticism and are sure to let you know of all the ways you will fail. I take this as a sign of their own fear of making radical decisions in their own lives. I have been called proud, and don't worry - everyone has been sure to let me know how I will get screwed on taxes, and how it's more than just having a talent for something - it's business and networking, and marketing plans.
Fear, fear, fear.
And because I am a cautious and rational person, who never wants to make a mistake that someone else took the time to warn me about - I listen to their fear. I consider it. It shakes my morale, and it makes me want to choose the same safe life that everyone else chooses - because nobody will have anything skeptical to say about choosing to work 8-5, buy a house and car, generate a societally acceptable amount of credit card debt and start popping out those 2.5 kids. This is the life that America has decided involves the least risk and resistance in proportion to happiness.
Unfortunately, I am one of those people that finds happiness in conflict, and purpose in struggle.
Long-story short... I have decided to stop listening to everyone's fear, skepticism and negativity. I know myself. I know what I am capable of and I know what makes me happy. And yes - what makes me happy - is not what makes you happy. Let's just start the conversation with that as a baseline.
...Anyway.
Here are some photos! Yay photos!
2 comments:
Don't worry, I have a whole army of supporters to counter your skeptics.
Fuck'em.
'Cause it's all like whatever, now.
First of all, you need to admit your own inability to hear the constructive portion of any constructive criticism. I'm just saying, before you bash all of the people that You solicited advice from. You have a strong tendency to put a negative spin on any advice you receive. A little self-awareness in this department might keep you from offending the people who love you.
And secondly, it's completely inappropriate to generalize everyone with a family as leading some safe and boring life. In the first place, having children is about the scariest, hardest thing you can do. And in the second, the world is a little too complicated to break people down into just the categories of parent or non-parent.
Please don't over-simplify my life just to make yours feel better.
-Thanks\
Mary
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